Never have I ever thought

"So I woke up in the middle of the night, and smiled

I guess, it's love that has awakened me"

Sometimes, I want to be on a beach listening to the waves hitting on random rocks;
Sometimes, I want to hang out in my favourite cafe reading a book while listening to songs;
Sometimes, I want to just look at the people walking in and out without saying a word;
Sometimes, I want to be someone better, better that who I am right now;
Sometimes, I think I am not enough, I haven't reach there yet;
And that, I hate when I am being me, just me

"Oh God, look at that emotions running through me right now"

I once believed in words - promises, and many more words, because I trusted them
I have faith in distance - "A couple can be close to each other but not in love, but two souls can also be in love miles apart", mainly because I have faith in who I love, not more than that

There goes the cycle of life, growing up, living dreams, searching for love, be in love, making love happen, having a future together with your partner, having a family, getting old and forgetful (and not continuing this).
But there's always some outbreak in between perfect life-chords - heartbreaks, heartbreaks and heartbreaks.
Of course, it is not necessarily all about just your love partner, it could also be family, friends, and you yourself.
We grow to be stronger at hard times, thus heartbreaks make us stronger after each of them came dropping by, and the worst part is, it makes you stop believing in something I guess?

It definitely takes time to heal, to compromise, to understand, to not let anger overpower you.
Anger has always been one of my weakest point that put me into dangerous situations and its a norm that I will wake up the next morning feeling remorseful for what I have gotten myself into
This, unfortunately is still one thing I am still mending - I would rather remain in silence than to speak spears that hurt people that does not deserve to take it and to talk when anger walked away

Living in despair and loneliness, finding myself walking on the path of bygones way too often in this ghastly town with barely no one you can talk to
Spent most of the time reading, reading and drinking, at which I would feed my soul and sleep drunk

I have then came to realize I am used to living alone (not sounding pathetic - keep reading)
Comfortable, very comfortable for me to have control of my own time, things I do and places I go
Of course, to feel what I want to feel without the influence of other's emotion and without people to judge me

Sometimes, people don't listen to me, they are too busy talking when I really need their attention and ears
Sometimes, people don't really value respect which I am really disgusted by
Sometimes, people don't understand the emotions and body language of another person - psychological education is one important lesson in life for me, one of the essentials
Sometimes, people failed to let me feel loved
People failed sacrifices
People failed efforts
People failed hopes
People usually fail me with a grade F
That just make everything so difficult - rate it, "5-star difficulty level" screw that

Time has come to make me realize that if we are not open to chances, chances will never come
Spent nights pointlessly strolling in a mall or sitting by the park in the dark has become something normal to me
That is way before happiness came, way before you came
Just because we are open to chances, thus we got that one slim chance for us to take hold of each other
My monochrome life has been painted with colors bits by bits later on, like I once said "You are my happiness" and here comes the rainbow

So I woke up in the middle of the night and found myself smiling
I guess it is love that has awakened me
At that point of life I have found the reason to wake up every morning smiling

Never have I thought love came so soon
I hope it will just stay,  just like how I wanna stay drenched in this love 

Love with a wild heart, live like a wild man, sing like a wild boar
Let happiness come wildly at you
And it will stay, I badly hope it will stay
For how long it should be

Things never change but people change;
Dreams never stop but people stop dreaming;
Love never stop but people stop loving;
Distance never parts but people tore them apart;
Sad but true

Move on eh?

"If you have positivity in you, possibilities will follow"
I have faith in you, that is where love follows
For you are the "someone in the crowd that I would dance under a city of stars"