Rewind maybe

 

Who will ever thought of the bad will come that soon

Emotions hit me real hard in this year. Joy, anger, sadness, nervousness, excitement, anticipation, and what more, gratefulness, satisfaction and happiness (trying to defense myself for not publishing throughout this year).

It seems like time has gotten way faster than it usually was.
Reaching to an age where me myself deem to see me in another stage of life, doing something great, not just telling people that "Yeah, I'm having a job now". Now you'll wonder where did all of your dreams and that passion went - they eventually fade away leisurely when you leisure your time away.

That, is one question I need to answer myself too. Sucks.

The past travel weeks has got me into a really deep emplacement of where my emotions are. Places of which dragons laying on piles of gold in a dark dungeon. The best place to let your mind wander off is at a place you know no one, and you know nothing about what's in front.

Be lost, be humble, be free, be you.

Break ups had been a real struggle in life. It had always be, me and you, everyone.
A relationship is all about understanding between two souls. When one understands, one will not let emotions take over that easy and will drudge to be a better person.

Loving is easy, keeping it fresh needs effort, both of them.

The hardest part in a break up page is to put the snatch on the dependence you once had on that someone. Is that love or is that a daily routine, that you always do does not seem to have a point. That for me, is the hardest part. Even your brain registers the habit and that is the reason why we tend to dwell in sadness until we pull through that particular variable time frame.

A friend once asked, do you ever regret knowing or spending time that once spent on them and ended up in sorrow?
No, and I will never be. The moments that we once had together, coon's age or just bat of an eye, for sure there are moments of happiness which were precious. Moments where we grow, we learn and we understand each other is just priceless. The extreme of saying to be in regret is when someone is just blurred by tears and emotions.

The one phrase that was often asked in my whole trip was "How I wish you are here with me". Seeing things that I see, sharing plates, sipping on bottles of beers, chilling in summer, walking to places, together, too good to be true.

Growth in a journey is usually the best thing in life.

We know we can do better, but we always missed the chance until there is no chance left.
Taking things for granted.

Love should be something we be proud of. Loving someone worth loving, loving someone that loves you.

I once saw you in me, I once saw you in my future;

Days with you were once blithe;

Hours were when messages travel across miles to reach the other side;

Minutes were when hate overpowered love;

Seconds were when words hurt

To my past relationships, there is a need for me to apologize for not taking hold of each chance once spared and thank you for another heartbreak journey to make me learn the hard way.

And yes, unfortunately this is a break up post for myself (if you think it is a travel post, nah).
Wishing people that are still duelling with heartbreaks eventually recover soon and people are in love, to be in love and to bear what love gives.

Rewind maybe? I know I can do better now